working keeps me sane I know
how many ships can one man row
close my eyes drain for blood
leaches brought the cleansing flood
patching up my broken bones
filling jars with kidney stones
loosing weight do you wanna see
cancer taking a crack at me
roses around two oak tree hearts
burn me up and spread the parts
lucky you there’s cake and wine
first we mourn then we dine
Our insecurities push us towards living a life of security.
My question is if this is a good or bad thing?
like in spanish there are two ways to say ‘you’
the informal way is tu
the formal way is Lei
plural of tu is voi
plural of Lei is Loro
Lei and Loro are capitalized because lei is she and loro is they
This is the first year where I honestly wish I could forget the previous. I’ve never been so thankful for a year ending. I don’t feel like typing out a sob story about why 2013 absolutely fucking sucked though, I want to try and focus on the positive.
Was there anything gained in 2013?
Actually, yes. Despite all of the complete shit starting in January and ending in December, some good things happened as well.
- Work. I started my first real job as a software engineer in January at Peoplefluent. And then I started an even cooler job in September as Partners Healthcare. I am fortunate enough to get good benis, work with really cool people, and I’ve been working on some awesome stuff. I’m really looking forward to working here in 2014.
- Family. New family bonds and important discussions took place this year as a result of all the bullshit that was happening at the time. I think 2013 proved that family is what will always be with you no matter what happens.
- Self Criticism. Maybe this isn’t the right phrase for what I’m trying to express but 2013 has made me become more aware of my own actions, future plans, and interests. I’ve learned to question myself even more. What am I doing and why? What do I want? How can I be a better person? What can I do to help? I don’t have all the answers yet but I feel more comfortable with what I am looking for and who I am. But more importantly, I am challenging myself to do things better and push for what I really want without conforming.
- Friends. I made some new friends in 2013 and reconnected with older ones. It’s easy for me to stay in my own bubble and be alone but this changed a bit last year for a bunch of reasons.
Did I do anything interesting last year?
A few things.
- I took a last minute flight to Seattle and hiked for a few days in the Northern Cascades. It was my first backpacking trip and I learned a lot. I am looking forward to future trips.
- I’ve been snowshoeing with a boy recently and started snowboarding again (thankfully).
- I met a lot of distant family that I hadn’t ever met before or hadn’t seen in a long time. It is unfortunate that we connected under the circumstances at the time, but I appreciate knowing them more now.
- I bought and sold a 2011 Jeep Wrangler with BEAST tires
- I rejoined the v-dub club again with a standard transmission golf :)
- I went skydiving in August
- I got a boyfriend
I see a lot of ‘I’s’ in my lists which brings me to my 2014 plans. I want to go back to basics and give back as well as improve myself.
- Volunteer again. I stopped awhile ago and really want to start again. The first 5 months of 2014 will be difficult to accomplish this because I will be in school but I have been looking into a lot of opportunities for the remainder of the year.
- Take sister snowboarding more. We actually have plans for this weekend :)
- Do more stuff with mother.
- Settle my nana’s estate in Puerto Rico so my family can sell the place. This means lots of money and paperwork but it’s in progress.
- Give better presents this year.
- Travel even more. I have plans for skiing in Vermont, Milan over a weekend, skiing in Colorado for a long weekend, and Nashville for a longer weekend. I’d like to make one more trip in 2014 in the summer/fall. Whether I travel solo or with others, I want to make it a point for this year and years to come to travel and experience different things wherever and whenever possible.
- Start Running Again.
- Hike More.
- Save more money.
Things are looking up. I think we all learn from past experiences and 2013 was one huge experience for me as well as many others in my life. I could be negative and complain even more about last year but I would much prefer make lists of awesome things that I can focus on and enjoy life as it comes.
Happy New Year!
Starting getting a strange
0×80004005 (NS ERROR FAILURE)
error on Firefox while going through automation tests today. Problem was finally resolved by deleting my temp data in AppData on Win7.
Though I am not a fan of running Windows, I have had to lately for work. I came across an issue recently when upgrading to Tomcat 7 that took me awhile to figure out. It seemed like my Tomcat was running out of memory, and I soon realized that the heap size wasn’t being declared as it previously had been in the catalina.bat file in Tomcat6.
set CATALINA_OPTS=%CATALINA_OPTS% -Dnop -Xms2048m -Xmx2048m -XX:MaxPermSize=384M -Xdebug -Xrunjdwp:transport=dt_socket,server=y,suspend=n,address=8787 -Xnoagent
Need to install gcc? installing gcc44 will download gettest, mpfr, gmp, bash, gmake, and gcc44 for you.
pkgin install gcc44
Use the fetch command found in /usr/src/commands to download stuff via url. I wanted to download a package of mine on github and couldn’t for the life of me remember what the command was in Minix 3 (no curl, no wget here). I shall never forget fetch again, and neither shall you.
500 OOPS: vsftpd: refusing to run with writable root inside chroot()
The easiest way for me to move benchmarking results from my Minix3 vm in qemu to my ubuntu localhost is via ftp. Today, I was unable to log in as myself. This appears to be a new security feature. I found a temporary way around this seeing as though I will be uninstalling sftpd once I am done with Minix, or at least disabling it..
I chmod a-w’d my /home/user, effectively stripping user’s of any ability to modify this directory’s contents. Then
sudo mkdir /home/user/ftp sudo chown -Rv user /home/user/ftp
I also forgot to toggle passive mode once logged in, which tripped me up for a bit!
removing permissions from my home directory took away my ability to log in after shutting down my computer. I ended up having to create a new admin account and chmodding back my home so that I could log in. I suppose I’ll have to find a better way to ftp stuff over…or never shutdown my computer again.